It’s like a fly. Tiny little fly that buzzes around you. Ruining your mood, your evening, Your peace of mind. You try to ignore it, pretend it is not there, but you just can’t. That’s what insecurities are. A fly. Buzzing around, touching, pricking, desperately trying to get your attention. Waiting for you to chase it while losing your mind. Highlighting all your weakness and hiding your strengths. Bringing your entire world down just by its existence. It is relatively insignificant in the broad scheme of things, but you just can’t seem to ignore it.
In our minds, it’s only us with the fly problem. If just I could get rid of this one fly, my life would be so much better we say. Ashamed to walk around. What if someone sees this fly around me. What will they think? Not knowing that everyone is fighting a host of them. Every day we wake up, and something about who we are bothers us. We are never tall enough, smart enough, funny enough, thin enough, fair enough, good-looking enough, rich enough and on and on. Sometimes you want to beg and cry and hope things change. They come in all shapes, forms, and sizes. Sometimes it cripples us. Some days it lays low. Almost making you believe you have overcome it. While it silently lurks. Waiting for the tiniest window to reenter your life like an unwanted relative.
But how do we win? How do we get rid of the feeling of hopelessness and misery? The sense of having no control? Because we know that trying to squish a fly is a fool’s errand. So how do we get rid of by not looking like fools?
Kaushal Sadashiv 